I want to relate this trait of mine to my topic of choice over the past couple months. Although there are a lot of negative side effects that go along with being a hopeless romantic, I also love this about myself! It makes life interesting. However, as of late, I've tend to drift away from this mindset and have become almost bitter towards it. Especially with the Christmas season in full swing there is so much love in the air, and I'm just not feeling it. I've always loved Christmas, but for the past three years I've experienced Christmas in a new light. It's been about walking through the malls holding hands, sharing hot cocoa, exchanging gifts with that someone special, and cuddling by the fireplace... now I look at couples who are happy and experiencing that same joy that I had felt in prior years and I hate them! Now I know that's not a very nice thing to say, but I told you all I was going to be honest while writing this blog... I see the pictures of adorable text messages on Instagram and I don't like them on purpose. Or when I'm flipping through the channels and there is a cheesy holiday chick flick on about a girl who finds her soul mate on Christmas Eve, I change it...I can't even watch The Grinch or Scrooge because even those movies have happy endings. I've turned into this grumpy jerk who doesn't think anyone should have love because she doesn't. I must say, it is comforting knowing that there are a lot of other single girls out there who are going through the exact same situation as me, who are just as bitter as I am. But this isn't who I am and this isn't who I want to be... I need to find a way to love the little things again.
This is the part of the post where I would normally come up with a solution to this problem...but I got nothing. I'm looking for suggestions! Is this just a phase that everyone goes through after a break up? Will I eventually move past the anger and not cringe whenever I pass a jewelry store? I'm assuming it just takes time...but I thought I'd ask to be sure. Like I said before I want to be a role model for other girls who are going through tough break-ups but I don't have all the answers. I can only teach on the lessons that I have learned, and I am still struggling through this one...